CHANGE/REALIZATIONS(I'm changing)
- mashatchesnokova
- May 19
- 3 min read
All the ways in which I'm starting to change this summer 2025....or realizations....
Appreciate UW-Madison (it's actually a good school, I want to stay there, it's well-known, it's got a great reputation, and I'm proud to be there)
Less questioning of if I want to live in a different country (I actually really appreciate freedom thank you very much, it's the way it inherently should be anyway)
but it depends on what happens in the future, still, in other ways
and on a lot of other things
but guess what? I feel more at peace
Don't understand love, and am as confused as ever about it
But possibly, in a better direction
is love an essence, is it just there or not
or is it a choice
is it both?
can love be rationalized (I know it can be in some ways at least...and is this good or bad?)
I miss my friends
I miss routine
I miss structure
I miss business (even statics and MAYBE even CS)
My fears are actually dumb and would never happen
Everything will be okay
You know what, even if I don't have the best grades, even if it makes me feel dumb, I'm honestly proud of even those grades
it's all so intricate
so much more goes into it
real power and smartness is the way your brain powers and can think, adapt, understand, learn, develop, think from different perspectives, engineer, problem solve...
Sometimes you have to force yourself to do things when you don't have motivation
It's okay, good, and healthy to slow down, have slow days, relax, have time to yourself, reflect, and think on things
and there should be ZERO guilt associated with it
Sometimes there are people that are close to us, or not even necessarily close to us, they can do toxic things, but that doesn't make them toxic people and they can still be vital/crucial to us
everyone makes mistakes
we all live and we learn
and you should never punish yourself for things you didn't know at the time or things you were only learning
hmmm like grades?
as long as you try your best
have grace, but also have discipline
Weird days are okay, it gets better, life is confusing, but always worth it
you can't change sometimes, so you should change to love and appreciate them
Time goes by fast no matter what
Life is so unpredictable and can change in two seconds, as can your feelings
you literally never know in life
part of the excitement
What we do and say can greatly impact others, for better or for worse. And it doesn't matter whether you think it can't; it can and does
every step in life is a learning curve
embrace it
be radiant
we all should be gracious and humble because we all make mistakes, and we often even go through similar ones
+ who are we to judge
one of the hardest things to me has been understanding that differences make us unique, beautiful, we need to appreciate what we have and not take it for granted. Difference makes us stronger, it should not tear us apart, even when there are so many ways for it to do so.
idk respect people
There are almost always more sides than one to the story (the complexity of life in a nutshell)
I have had wayyyyyyyyyyy too much time to think. God knew I would be too powerful without a busy schedule, I'm a menace in the summer right now. That's why he had to make me suffer with engineering and disguise it as my own self-hatred (if you can't tell, this is a joke).
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