Confrontation

So, usually, I would say confrontation is a good thing. However, sometimes, I don’t think it’s the most necessary. Or maybe even bad to do.

When is it good? When you feel like there’s a problem in the way of your relationship that without addressing…let’s just say the relationship cannot continue without it. Because you can’t possibly imagine being normal again without resolving it. But, that being said, you actually have to somewhat care about reviving the relationship in the first place…if you don’t, if you feel like there problem is not your fault or common sense…it might start to lean more into the exceptional cases…

Again, what’s scary to me is the being dramatic aspect. If it feels like it will be dramatic, overreacting, overemotional, pick me, attention drawing behavior…(which maybe applies more in group settings anyway). Like, sometimes, hard to know…when is too much too much? When knowing me, what even is too much? It seems like barely anything can be at this point. Because truly what matters. When there isn’t even a solution.

It’s like…I have so much bigger problems than YOU, chat. Like sybau. So, what is too much…what is too little? What compares, and what doesn’t?

What is simply an inconvenience, and solvable? Can I do something about this? Is there a solution? Is it simply an inconvenience? Is there a solution? Can I live with it? Is it my biggest worry? All of these contribute to these cases where I’m like absolutely not.

No excuses. That seems like a very Russian mindset…

Then again, why am I putting myself through this torture? Literally no one is making me. I can choose who I spend my time with, what I put up with.

Imagine looking back in a few years, and thinking, I let myself get treated like that shit? And being bad at yourself, and regretting…

Though can you truly regret, what you didn’t know? What you did when you felt that it was right? And remembering how you felt? How you logically acted, then?

Is it just annoying, or is it truly something you need to confront, and face your fears?

Do you need to face your fears, when it’s going to hurt the person, when there’s no clear answer or solution to the problem…when it’s an inconvenience and solvable and all these things…do you see what I mean?

But usually, I would say it’s a good thing. These other exceptional cases, came up in some…interesting situations in the past few months of my life.

When confrontation gets in the way of somebody else’s happiness, it’s easy for me to draw a line.

When it feels awkward, unclear, like what would you even say? When the answer or conclusion is not even clear at all. People pleasing…