Didn't get the internship:(

All semester, this semester, and last semester, I was trying to find a job.

But not just any job. The perfect job. Something I was actually interested in. Something that actually made sense for me (I've had one job so far. I worked as a CNA for over two years).

Why would I want a job I had absolutely no interest in, purpose for?

I wanted:

1. Something medical

2. NOT CNA- I was sick of it. Enough! Enough! Enough!

3. Something research would've been perfect. Even voluntarily (as in, volunteering, not getting paid). Either way, with some kind of research/research assistant, I would've been killing two birds with one stone, so to speak;( why the fuck do we speak this way). Job/research, or volunteering/research? Both perfect for med school!

   1. But again, the research should interest me, and relate to me?

And then, it was like from heaven, a notification came from my pre-health canvas course. This is why you read your emails in university. You never know.

Two internship opportunities. I genuinely don't have it in my brain anymore what the other one even was, because it was- whatever. But the second one?😍 Or first one?😍

It was like the most perfect thing I have ever laid eyes on.🤩

ALLOW ME to describe this internship to you.

A surgical simulation internship. Undergraduate health degree. Biomedical Engineering PREFERRED. And all their requirements and required skillsets PERFECTLY aligned with the skillsets I have, and who I am as a person. I've never filled out an application so fast. The "paragraph" questions they had sounded exactly like what I wrote about in my college essays and exactly like, the reason I applied to Madison. So that was not hard.

I think I was in love.

Unfortunately, they chose one person, I'm a freshman, and they probably chose someone with more experience and more deserving.

Makes sense.

But, 😍😍😍😍🤩🤩🤩🤩

That would've been paradise. Guess it was too good to be true.