Feeling of fitting in part two

So apparently I may have a pattern of arguing one thing on one blog post, and then the complete opposite on the next.

Although I literally argued about my feeling of not fitting in, in so many different contexts, over the course of so many different years, I'm about to argue the "but." The ways I have felt like I fit in. A lot of it can be attributed to PEOPLE, making me feel like I do fit in.

1. Even though I've argued a ton that I feel like I don't fit in at this university, there's people who have made me feel like I fit in; like I belong here. Because my friends, are such nice people; I've made these friends, and suddenly it's like, "yes, maybe I should be here, because they're here, and so we're meant to be together and be friends, and also they're making me feel like I belong."

2. Certain clubs, areas of interest: like ballet, orthodoxy, dancing in general, engineering, etc.

3. School in general- like first and foremost this is a university- and I am here for the very reason of the education. So the overall knowing that everyone is going through the same thing- the mundane waking up, day, classes, midterms, etc, it brings a sense of conformity and therefore, belonging, I guess?? And the overall atmosphere a university is just so good at giving off- research, opportunity, internship, curiosity, desire to learn, asking questions, learning new things genuinely every single fucking day (me thinking about calc III right now lol and how crazy it's getting) -yes! Like that is the place I want to be. Some great institution like that- and challenging myself everyday- so that does make me thing I am in the right place - I belong.

4. I feel like I deserved to get into this university, even if it's making me question that everyday. But we'll get to that in a different blog post, yay!! (slight sarcasm, it's not an exactly, happy topic).

5. And I mean, even if I don't want to be just speaking it all the time, I can speak English, so I can't say I don't fit in in that aspect (though obviously the desire makes a big difference in the overall feeling of fitting in).