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Forced to try. I try so hard

Forced to try. I try so hard. I put my soul into it. I don’t know why. Why I try so hard. It’s not as if it makes a difference.


Oh how many people there are in the world who don’t care. Who don’t try. So why is it if I care with all my soul, and it DOES. NOT. MATTER?


Like for example, as I have written about in a previous blog post, how I tried so hard to win piano competitions, to be everything they wanted me to be…pointless. WHY DO I EVEN TRY. WHEN DO I EVER WIN.


Yet I knew those who didn’t care about piano twice as much, didn’t practice for hours everyday like I did…she always won at everything.


Could it really be, you win when you don’t care?

 
 
 

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