God will solve all of my relationship problems (not my problem)

This is a continuation of my "I'm screwed" blog post (Also read: What the show Крепостная taught me about greed and love") because it is very closely related.

So, basically I was right in "I'm screwed." Based on the loose facts, you don't know the situation exactly, and there are nuances...but at the same time, in the whole essence that matters, I was right.

Are you heartbroken?

I have been, too.

And I know that it is hard, and what I'm about to say is easier said than done.

If the goal in life is to be like God, than we need to remember what He would do in certain situations. God would never be heartbroken. He wouldn't let such a thing affect Him.

To really know and feel true love, it is a gift.

No matter how it ends.

We need to remember that.

In a way, no one cares if you're heartbroken. You should be grateful that you were able to experience love in the first place.

Someone not loving you back, not wanting you, not wanting you as much, all of it hurts.

But you cannot control what other people do, and what other people feel, hell, you can't even control what you feel (or don't).

Because to love, initially, at least in the sense that I'm writing about, it's not a choice. It's an essence that is there or not.

If someone's love for you just isn't there, why are you getting all sad about it?

And yet, I know, trust me I know, how it hurts.

Just need to remember, to be grateful that you had the opportunity to love such a wonderful person in your life, that you were able to exist and intersect at the same time in life (think about how many years it's been...).

That person is probably not in your life anymore. At least not actively. But in way, they still are. They exist, (considering they don't die --> :(...) during the duration of your lifetime; during your life. They are a part of your life.

Isn't that kind-of beautiful?

Of course, it's tragic too. Tragic when you watch them move on and possibly to other people, and imagine their life without you. They're unaffected, but you might be.

Oh, what a plague.

It is difficult. Which I've said a lot of times already, but in truth, it can't be said enough.

But remember, just trust in God, bro. Let it go (Also read: "The Calmness of Orthodoxy"). I know it hurts, I do know.

It is God's plan. So that should give you peace. Have patience. Trust in God's plan. Trust in God. Pray for strength and patience and endurance. Let go.

I believe in you, and if you're going through this, I'm praying for you, xoxo,

Masha.