how I start writing and ideas just come to me, yet leading up to this it doesn’t feel this way at all.

Such a weird phenomenon. I will be superbly positive and convinced that I have nothing to write about, but then, it just has to start somewhere, and as I start writing, the ideas just rush to me. It’s always weird when I feel like I have nothing to say. But I feel like, if there is anything I have learned about myself over the years, it’s that I barely ever have “nothing to say.” Either I just don’t know anything about the topic (and there are some topics I wouldn’t touch with a ten foot pole, like politics or politicians that I don’t even know) in which case it wouldn’t make sense for my input, or, if it is something I could say something about…then I’m just choosing not to say it, for whatever reason that may be.

Even the posts that I feel are going to be short, sometimes, end up being my longest ones.

This process goes hand in hand with the collages that I make through the app that’s connected to Pinterest (shuffles). I’m about to hit 500 shuffles on there. Kind-of fun that I’ve 300 on here…big milestones…but in different ways. In a way that is very similar to writing, that app and that process is a calming process. Something I do for fun. Both are creative outlets, of different sources (sounds like physics to me).

I feel like lately, for whatever reason, especially by people who don’t even read my blog, have somehow mustered the courage to make fun of it? Of the length, of the organization? I would like to reiterate, that this idea was my own, and my blog can be whatever I make it or like it to be, whatever length, whatever style, and whatever organization. This is all basically the ideas and concepts of my brain…and the lengths, styles, and organization are a reflection…analogous to (the style of) my brain. So I’d really like not to be insulted on that, lol? (I’m just joking). And I will not apologize for the way I write. No one is responsible for it except for me, and I can just do whatever I want. No one is being held on gunpoint for reading my words, in any case. No one reads this unless they want to (and no one, no one wants to).

It’s interesting to think about how the two outlets, collages and writing, can intersect or affect each other. Because of course, as you can imagine, there are things that I would write about, that are writable-about-able, that I wouldn’t put in collage form. And the exact opposite goes for collages, too. There are fun things and topics that are fun and make sense to put in collage form, to make a collage about, but I absolutely would not write about! And, something new that I am still experimenting with, is the intersection of the two. When can I use one, for the other? And vice versa.

It’s weird how both are fun, both are outlets, aka, escapes, in a way, a way to get something out…to get a creative idea out…so similar? And yet so different. Different types of outlets when words…are philosophical and more imaginative, more logical, more reasoning. A pouring burst of emotions, but also reason, and logic. Ideas, concepts. And pictures are ideas and concepts in a completely different, fun, digestible, and not hard-to-follow way…you can think of it as “taking away your imagination” yet it really does not do anything of the sort…sometimes I make a collage and think (this can be a blog idea! Also!) …

I think there are multiple reasons why this phenomenon happens to me.

1. Naturally as you start writing, you start thinking (more ideas)

2. And sometimes as I start writing, I get more ideas, but not for this specific blog post, but it would make sense somewhere else…or is too much to get into in one blog post. That would make the current one too consulated…whereas it could be a good topic for a new fresh blank white page. Obviously, if I don’t like the particular idea enough, then it can just be combined. But I do this, if it make sense, REGARDLESS of length. Length is not a concern. I would never want to do it for length reasons…the whole idea is, why ruin a good idea? I guess. A lot of the time, it’s similar topics that then pop up in my head and in a way get “grouped” together- but not always…brains can work in strange ways! Like when, because of your life experiences, have weird ideas & concepts grouped together. And especially if I have not written in a while…(but even if I have)

3. Things happen on the daily that make me think and pocket things I can write about…lately I feel like it has been almost tied to memories or moments or experiences. And if. I can’t pull out my phone and write down the idea in the moment, then I can sometimes just think of the moment itself, and usually I will never forget about a truly good idea. Sometimes it’s a conversation, for worth of another example.

4. And overall, as you start thinking, you have thoughts you’ve never thought before…you start “figuring things out” and because you think about, you have quite a bit to say…especially if you enjoy that entire cycle! Thinking, reflecting, & writing.