I genuinely miss summer so bad

I genuinely miss summer so bad, guys.

Right now I’m playing my summer playlist as I’m writing this. It’s nostalgic; it’s almost hard to listen to. It makes it genuinely feel like summer. Such summer music. And a lot of these songs, I genuinely don’t listen to until it’s summer. During the fall and winter months especially, and even spring (cause the semester is still in full swing) I usually listen to depressing music. So this is quite a genre and mood shift.

This is making me feel like I’m feeling the warm sunshine rays, wearing sunglasses, windows rolled down as I’m driving listening to this, air conditioning on, shorts, t shirt, the air is warm, hair in the soft breeze, life is good…

This is bad. To miss summer, is understandable. And obviously I miss it and as I think a lot of people naturally do, for a lot of different reasons. The weather; it’s sunnier. Whatever. It’s understandable, and I usually miss it too. But this is different. This time I crave it and I’m sad. I think a lot of probably has to do with the fact that I have a scary possibly life-altering decision coming in a few days and I’m scared and it’s cold and it’s winter and everything just goes together so well, everything I just said right now…right?

But in the summer I had a similar scary decision coming, and after it I was depressed. This repeating, but this time being SO much worse, is precisely what I’m so scared of.

But there a short period at the beginning of the summer, where literally nothing was bothering me or scaring me- yet. Almost like I was in denial. I had so many fun plans and ideas, things to do with friends, pictures I would take, places I would go.

Like, the Shedd Aquarium. Driving to Chicago with my friend. That was SUCH a fun day.

Or, the botanical garden we went to. Actually it was the Milwaukee Domes.

Those were the big things. Or how I introduced my friend to açaí bowls? Those were amazing. Or my Texas trip?

I’ve been thinking about that Texas trip A LOT. It was literally such a blast. First of all, visiting and seeing a high school (middle school, and elementary school) friend that moved away that I hadn’t seen in like at least a full year. And so much had happened in between then. And we were so close, so it was so good to catch up. I hadn’t been to Texas so much, and I loved it. It was literally such a fun trip, and we did so many fun things like go to the mall, go to the art museum, pool, tennis, etc it was literally a blast. And even going there was fun. I had never been or had to navigate the airport alone, but I was not stressed at all, since I was literally just staying in the country. It was warm, and everything felt perfect and stress-free. I just found my little gate, got myself a little pink drink, and waited for my flights with my AirPods in. My friend introduced me to rap music. So I was listening to it in the airport, and in that art museum. It was a famous one, too.

Plus, I LOVE airplanes. And flying. And airports. Like the whole experience. Only sad part was that I thought I would be able to listen to music on the airplane but unfortunately, I would have had to pay to do that, so I was like fuck that (pay for wifi).

My brother’s/best friend’s wedding was another big thing that happened that was literally so fun. I never wanted that day to end. That, like the Texas trip, was also in June. The very beginning of June.

Or I even think of camping. How I’d love to be camping right now.

How I’d love to be in warm weather in general.

I’ve been dreaming of going away. Far far away. Somewhere tropical. That sounds so incredibly nice and therapeutic for my soul. Some nice Hawaii, or Punta Cana. I’ve gone to both, and I want to go back to both. Especially right now I’m thinking Punta Cana cause it’s foreign. It’s farther. And more exotic (more exotic leaving the country). Especially now. When I want to get away. Far, far, from all my problems, issues, and worries.

And back to talking about music. There was so much good music. I had a goal to listen to like all of Lana Del Rey’s songs (I don’t think I fully did it, because there’s a lot and I was busy) but I also did this for Sabrina Carpenter and Madison Beer and I discovered so much new music through it. My goal was also to create the most perfect summer playlist and I think I did a pretty good job. Clearly pretty good, if I’m listening to it right now in the middle of winter, trying to pretend like I am in summer (and it’s working, until I look outside and see a lot of snow, which is pretty in its own way, but that’s not the pointttt Mashaaaa)

Sabrina Carpenter had like the BEST albums for summer. The Short n’ Sweet album, and I’m pretty sure it was pretty new too. I can’t remember if it had literally just released that summer, but then she also released Man’s Best Friend as well. And Lana had some really good summer songs too! Like “Music To Watch Boys To” and “White Mustang” and “13 Beaches” “Million Dollar Man” “Off to the Races” etc. Madison Beer as well. Madison and Sabrina I had discovered summer 2024 (aka like just started listening to them). And that was the beginning of me listening to rap too….the point is, it was a GOOD summer for music!!

I hope winter really doesn’t make me hate my life in a few days/weeks.