I'm just a movie character

My resolution is life, especially when things get beyond interesting, is to resort to this idea that really, I'm just a movie character.

And my life is a movie.

Yes, I know, that I do have the power to make my own decisions in life.

But if that's all you think, you're forgetting the greater power of God.

Really, He is the decider of all. He oversees all. He decides my life. It's an intricate special balance that may be hard for non-believers to understand. There is both choice, and there is both fate. Together, co-existing, in almost ironic harmony.

So when things are really interesting and catastrophic, I just stand back and watch (I know I still participate in the outcome).

But a lot of the time in these specific instances, the outcome is also out of my control in many ways and it's because of the participation of other people in these scenarios.

I don't know what they're going to do, and I don't know what's going to happen.

I'm just as curious to find out what's going to happen in my life, as a viewer would watching the story of my life play out, or as a friend would be excited to hear all about it.

We are all a little clueless when it comes to our lives.

My life has a tendency to throw detours, get crazy, wild, and interesting.

Sometimes there's a sub-plot that is actually more interesting than a movie or a book, so it's almost out of necessity that I've had to develop this strategy.

Why have I had to develop it?

1. For one, it's actually a stress mechanism when you analyze it. I don't feel in control, I don't know what to do, and I don't know what's going to happen, so I stand back and let God take control. I let go (Also read: "The calmness of Orthodoxy"). Therefore, it's relief.

2. It actually lowkey, weirdly, also helps me be more grateful when I do this. Because I realize that I am not in control, that God is, and I am grateful for everything he has given me, and how interesting he has made my life! Therefore, it's faith in God. Trusting him.

3. Keeps things interesting!!!;)

   
   

What kind of character are you?

Very interesting question because somehow, I would say I'm all of these at the same time in these scenarios: 1.) Main character because obvi it's still my life and I get some say in choices and decisions and actions. 2.) Side character? because like...I'm still just watching what's going to happen. 3.) NPC where it's kind-of like no control or difference 4.) Wallflower where I blend in with the wall and am outside watching/peering into the glass box that has my life playing it out inside of it.

Examples please?

Yeah...what are some examples? Probably the best example I have for you is imagine you tried for things to work between this one guy you really liked but it didn't seem to work out very easily and was confusing and so you gave up and then this other guy you made a date with, and then realized last second that the original guy was going to be there, and so now you're in a situation where you're on a date with a guy in front of the guy you truly have feelings for...and all of this is playing out in real time. Stay tuned.

And so, basically, God will solve all of my relationship problems. Not my problem.

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Masha