Inertia

It is time that I write about yet another band (AJR) song. Please God, give me life. You know it’s bad when I feel too stressed to even listen to music. Or have no time to. Seems silly, doesn’t it? A song is what, on average? Like…three minutes?

I’ve actually actively realized recently that there might be multiple songs by them I want to write about. So I’m not sure if the title right now (one particular song title) is a work in progress and if in reality, I will actually make it a general post compilation of many songs by the band (kind-of like I did for The Score).

Recently I quoted a Tate McRae song in a recent blogpost because it applied to my life so flawlessly.

But now I’m realizing that part of the reason I think AJR songs have been hitting so hard (especially for a person who loves music but specifically focuses so hard on LYRICS) is that the lyrics and not just the beat (because the beat is obviously) is lowkey great. And, they have been applying. It was like a lightbulb moment.

Inertia:

“I’m an object in motion, I’ve lost all emotion

My two legs are broken, but look at me dance”

The two legs broken I think sticks out to people in this song lyrics. It kind-of catches you off-guard, doesn’t it? Seems intense. But the intensity seems so crucial and relatable to me. I’m sure glad I don’t have broken leg or legs, and have never actually broken a bone in my body in my life. I hope it stays that way. But boy does it sure feel like my legs could be broken with the amount of stress in these bones with all the schoolwork, the constant shuffling from class to class, and the no time.. With the amount of lack of motivation that depression does to you, and how it doesn’t make you want to go anywhere. Just makes you want to sit in the corner and cry.

I also feel like I’ve lost all emotion. But somehow still an object in motion? Ain’t got no tears left to cry by Ariana Grande going to be the next song???

“I wanna be big like my plans

So why am I so tiny, and why am I so mad?”

Big dreams (also a song by The Score), big plans, want to be big, but it’s not working isn’t it?

The mad is a crucial part I want to highlight in relating to my own life. I’ve wrote last semester, how I was caught off guard by the amount of madness (as in anger) in my bones. I was so angry at situations and my life, and I wasn’t even sure why (I mean with some situations it was obvious, but not with all). It was a learning period, a growth gap, from which I learned that I was indeed very angry. I tried to work on it, I tried to be less angry. I tried going to the scrapbooking shop to buy stickers. My healthy way of trying to cope is art of all forms, I guess. It’s not only writing, but it’s also STICKERS and scrapbooking. And can you guess the types of stickers that I bought? Stickers relating to anger. This is a healthy way of coping in my opinion. Face what’s hurting you. Face what’s making you feel emotion. Face what’s making you angry. Angry women. There are so many situations in my life making me angry. Some stem from literally problems that are 100 years old (women oversexualized, not respected, not viewed as equal, rape, etc) to people from this day and age (problems persisting, new forms of oppression, even if the people and the day and age are different, and the people seem different, they are actually not. The problems are not new, they are the same just different).

The song in general seems about changes wanting to be made (moving) but challenges (everything knowing you, who knows what else) and feeling stuck. Especially when I write about systems, now isn’t that relatable?

Omg it EVEN says:

“It’s inertia, guess this is just what I am

I’m stuck in this life, and I’m stuck in these parts.”

I can barely even know what I am or who I am. I am also stuck, as I’ve just said above.