Maybe I hate Francesca because I’m actually like her

Ugh Francesca, the Bridgerton character.

She’s so boring.

I’ve ranted about her, how much I hate her, but what if subconsciously I don’t like her because I’m like her? And I notice those things in her that I don’t like in myself? Or fear, of happening to me? And if it’s happening to me, that must be I must be predisposed to this happening…something in me is making it happen…the way I am? And it’s similar to her.

Like how she has a boring love life. Her love isn’t full of drama and surprises like it was for Daphne, Simon, her mom, Anthony, Kate, Collin, Penelope, even Eloise! The non romantic one, had a more interesting situation that she did.

She’s so NPC side character, and sometimes that’s ok, and even interesting! Like Edith in Despicable Me, like underrated, overseen characters like that. But not her! There is nothing to see here!

Her love with John is boring. Nothing happened, and nothing continues to happen. It’s mildly cute and admirable their little “not talking moment connection” and how they wanted to leave for…was it Scotland? I have no clue, because she’s so NPC I can’t even remember. It doesn’t matter though, and makes no difference either way. But stilll, even in that moment, they’re not talking! And them getting away, they want to get away from everybody! Probably be silent and not talk some more. Wow are they boring! Can’t even entertain themselves or each other or be interesting. It was funny when the mother says “that will be the quietest household ever. No one will talk in it.” For real!!! They don’t even talk when they’re home in the city. I can understand wanting to get away from the city though and live in the middle of nowhere…that part I understand.

Even though, I was driving today, and I was thinking about how society creates rules and a routine and system. That’s when I also wrote about routine today. People create routine. Without people, alone, can we have routine? It’s hard to. And I know now how crazy that makes me. Their society and its stupid rules, yes stupid, but it’s a system. It’s a routine. It’s people. It’s drama. It’s love and where the stories happen. And Francesca is just…boring.

I still want to live in the middle of nowhere. But I do have a slightly more awareness and fear now of how it could make me crazy.

Even if I like quiet and am in some ways similar to her, I still find ways to talk, be interesting and not boring, and have a life. Even though she is the one in a TV “drama,” I feel like way more “drama” happens to me. I think it’s all about what you want in life. What you want you attract. And because you also work towards it. Your goals.