My mental health second semester at university!!!

Mental health has always been a topic that has absolutely piqued my interest, but always a strange one. I think mental health is tough in general. It's hard to talk about, it's hard to understand, it's hard to think about. It's tough to conceptualize.

And different cultures view it differently, which I have run into a lot.

But regardless, I still think it's a real-life thing that exists; there's a lot of different types.

I think it can be talked about, and I think it should be talked about.

Coming with my experience from high school, I knew (or at least truly believed this about myself:) that I could never be the type of person who could do school all day.

Like, I thought I needed at least some time to myself each day, or doing something fun, or something I enjoyed, or some kind of relaxation.

And last semester that totally worked out. Last semester, I watched shows, and I took naps, I journaled, I read, I practiced piano, I was in so many different clubs, like boxing; I don't know, I just had time for all this random crap.

This semester was the complete opposite. Like I didn't realize until I had something to compare it to; until I had the previous semester's experience to compare it to.

And yeah I feel tired all the time, but somehow not burnt out? I don't know, I think understanding the term "burnt out" is such a difficult thing. You can't measure it, so how do you really know if you are or are not? What constitutes as feeling burnt out? I thought I was burnt out in high school. Now I have truly 0 time for myself, and I don't feel burnt out. I just grind all day long pretty much, and every day. Without a stop this semester. The only stop being spring break, which just ended this past Monday, which barely felt like a break, because I was still busy, just not with school (though I did do homework the first few days of spring break, and I had the longest russian lit reading assigned to us ever, a novella, that I was reading ALLL throughout break).

I think I've just learned something about myself. I rise to the occasion. It just reminds me of the whole leadership. Read my blog post about Leadership.

I truly thought I never could do it. Like just not the type of person. But I was wrong. If I had thought about it longer, I knew I actually could, if I had to, which I do...now.

At the end of the day, it probably can all just be attributed to priorities. Because I want this major, future, and career so bad; I'm a career woman, so I am doing everything I can.

I think the lesson here is

1. Don't doubt yourself

2. You can do anything (though I have trouble believing this quite often, but only when pertaining to myself)

3. Priorities. Dictate everything really.

p.s. LOLOL my thought process about this topic before I wrote this: "I can't do school all day, -wait but i can -thats literally what i do"