Second semester (university)

Second semester update!!!

So, second semester is almost over, and I've been meaning to make this post, and there's a few things I was thinking of writing on it.

Part of me is like, it makes no sense that I'm doing this so late, and part of me is also like, it's completely a normal time within the semester to do this.

I don't know but either way I think some reasons it took me so long to do this is because

1. This semester has been so busy, like hell compared to last semester which was way more chill

2. Honestly I think for most of the semester I have been waiting for it to be over.

I'm ready to be done, and I always try to positive, but this semester has been hard, and at the end of the day, you can't lie about how you feel. You can try to change how you feel, but you can't lie.

But I also think something really crazy starting happening pertaining to this semester. Because I've been feeling like I want it to be over, and each day is so dreadfully slow but fast at the same time, this semester has gone by SOO fast. It's way different than last semester, which was still fast in retrospective analysis, but in the moment, felt like it dragged on. But this semester is weird and ironic. Each day feels hard to get through, but because I have so much to do, it's like I'm fighting for time. So it goes by REALLY fast. I guess that's what happens when you're this level of busy.

This semester's hardship can be mostly attributed to two different classes. One of which the topic of I absolutely hate, but it was required for my major, and one of which I don't hate and actually enjoy. But both are pretty difficult and both take up ALL my time (not an exaggeration).

1. Computer science - Java |, and

2. Statics.

   My Java class has like a million assignments. My statics class is taught in a way that we only go over a few problems in each lecture, but every problem is so detailed and nuanced and different, so when we get the weekly homework, about 15 of them, we don't know how to do anything. We literally get homework on tough stuff we weren't taught or instructed on- anywhere or anytime. So it absolutely sucks trying to figure it all out on your own and a problem can easily take 2.5-5 hours. Getting a problem done in one hour is like an amazing rate honestly.

Credit wise -

1. I'm taking 17 credits

2. But on the first day of statics, my professor said that the class says 3 credits but should be considered 5 (and that definitely is so) so it's like I'm taking 19 actually.

Besides the two classes I've already mentioned, I'm taking a russian literature class and reading in russian so it's a lot of reading and I'm not used to that. I'm also taking intro to engineering (which isn't hard, but is a lot of assignments and sometimes takes up more time than usual, but usually and overall not that bad at all), and calculus |||. Calc ||| ain't even my tough class. It's statics if anything. Coding is hard too, to me, but in a different way.

Calc ||| this semester just feels annoying. It just gets in the way of my time for statics. And I try to get it out of the way but after statics, I feel like I have no energy to do calc.

I'm going to make a second post about my mental health this semester. Stay tuned.

Xoxo,

Masha