Should’ve become a dancer

WRONG! Couldn’t have done that either. I was always the worst in my class. And I’ve already wrote about how being a professional dancer was never in the cards for me based on my likes.

I just remember when I was considering being a dancer, and then I got to that point where they were basically like “you’re gonna have to quit school” and I was like “hell nah I’ve always wanted to be a doctor” like “haha you’re taking this too far” ballet is pretty and all…but nah. I wanted to be professional so bad.

I just wanted to be that good because I loved it so much and I’m a perfectionist.

But the life of the dancer… I think I always knew. That I did not love that. That I did not want that.

But now after all this happened…does hard work even matter? Does it even pay off? What was the point of all of this? Of going on this path? Should I have ever done this? Or should I have just stuck to the dancer plan.

Yes, I sucked. I suck at everything. But I could’ve just…tried, right now? But now I’m thinking hard work never FREAKING matters.

I remember my teacher once said “hard work beats talent when talent doesn’t work hard.” What a gamble for “talent” to not work hard. To gamble and depend simply on that.

I was always the hard work, never the talent. Never talented, and nothing going for me.

And yeah, hard work never beats talent, it seems.

And I never had talent, so I don’t beat anyone. I just….