Stages

Stages, ahh weird ahh stages…I’ve been going through weird stages.

First, I had a stage where I didn’t want to talk to anyone, just wanted to be alone. I desperately felt like I needed to and wanted to get away. But of course, I couldn’t.

Now, though? I’m going through a stage where I just want to be comforted, because I’m tired of feeling this way (hopeless). I want to feel happy, and I want people to be happy around me, and comfort me. At the same time, I do still feel hopeless, and like that will change nothing. Therefore, it feels as if I should just shut up, not talk to alone, I don’t know, sit in a corner and cry and do my homework or something. It feels like I’m drowning, and reaching out for anything is pointless at this point. It anything, I just feel bad for the person. Like I’m burdening them. And like I physically can’t, ask for anything. It feels unfair. I feel…bad for them???

Comfort. I need comfort. Perhaps I just need to watch one of my comfort movies! Either Kung Fu Panda or Mulan.

The fall semester, I went through some wild stages. Depression wasn’t a crazy one, and it wasn’t a stage either, sadly. Neither was anxiety or stress.

However, I had new emotions and stages too. Like ANGER. PURE ANGER and ANNOYANCE.

I was so angry, and annoyed. All. The. Time. So many things and situations.

Fall 2025 semester, was absolutely not a good one. It was awful.

I was extremely angry and extremely sad and extremely annoyed too. All three at once.

Angry at school. Angry at other life situations. Angry at my whole rant with women (women oppression). It felt like such a world I could not live in anymore. Sad at school. Sad at the oppression, and that it was a world I could not see living in. Annoyed at life situations. Annoyed at oppression.

So many things built up.

I would link the women blog post, because I cannot talk about it here. Simply cannot. Too hard. Too sad. Too angering. But it’s not letting me link it. If you want to read it, you can. Otherwise be confused.