the good out of the bad

First positive blog post you’re getting in a while, right, haha? (Don’t worry, many more sad ones in the make).

I’m not all bad, and I realize the power of positivity. It can be truly eye-opening when you realize something.

1. First of all, I’m not one to enjoy bragging about myself, in fact I really despise it and disgusts me. But I am honest, and I reflect, and I feel as if through all of these struggles, I have grown wiser (perhaps even from the mere action of having to be put through it and reflect on it). More emotional, more understanding of emotion, difficulties, situations, and why they can be? What they mean? Outcomes?

2. This, I think, is very interconnected to how my blog posts and writing grew a TON. I wish to do a separate blog post where I will go through how my blog posts evolved. They got better, more deep, less surface level, and I think it is very interconnected, if not completely linearly correlated, to my life (issues) as I have gone through it.

3. Somehow, when things were most difficult, more tight with time, and outright horrible, this GAVE me time to write, and the ideas, insights, as well as even inspiration and motivation to actually write these ideas.

4. They say that the most interesting and funny people (at least commonly thought) comes from trauma

5. “God gives his toughest battles to his strongest soldiers.”

6. The trauma makes for good stories (LOL) that’s one way of looking at it?

   
   

   Reflecting back, through what happened last year and continued to happen in present time, I think I really grew and developed as a person (even when I thought, truly, that I was done developing as a person!) and this extends into other parts of life-happenings as well, which I will not be discussing in this blog post currently. Of course there are negative side effects, as with, I guess anything, but I feel like I emotionally matured and can be more of an understanding person now through what happened. That doesn’t mean it still doesn’t (it does!) suck, and I definitely unlocked scary sides of me I never knew existed (were they always there, locked up deep down?), started having thoughts I never thought I would have, got weirder, etc.

   
   

   I WILL be adding more to this list as I go!