things i hate about myself

Everything hehe anyway…I won’t try to quantify.

I hate how bad of a friend I am.

I feel like, I can ghost, and get distant. Simply when I’m not feeling well. But the thing is, it’s because I don’t want to be a burden and annoy people. I don’t want to complain about the same thing 1000x. So I just won’t update anybody. But the bad downside is that I’m not checking up on them either. Because it’s weird to check up on somebody and go, “how you doing?” when you know the inevitable question is “how are you?” and that then you will have to either lie, or explain your entire life story.…it’s not a very pleasant choice.

The bad thing is when you’re doing bad all the time, well, this is all the time.

Uhhh…lore and drama make for good stories, eh?🥂