What the show Крепостная has taught me about greed and love

First of all, I'm warning that in order to talk about this, there will be lot of spoilers, or maybe, the biggest spoiler or whatever.

Introduction: Recently I started a new show and it has actually changed my life. What happened in the show was so cruel but I had to make peace with it. The show had me so hooked and when it did that, it genuinely felt like the worst thing that has ever happened to me. It felt so unjustified. These two lovers, the world against them, working to keep them apart at every cost, and eventually killing the guy before they really could get far. Nothing went right for them, and yet they were truly the kindest souls in the world. That just absolutely crushed me. I was so mad at the show, thinking, "how could they do this?!"

And though it was totally unjustified and awful and cruel and unexpected, seemingly teaching that horrible people get away with everything and that those with the purest souls get absolutely (well, killed), I realized that the reason I was so upset was almost because of greed. I needed it to work out.

And then I realized something. To love someone, or to get to love someone, is a privilege. Loving alone is enough. Even if it doesn't work out. We always have the memories, and the good warm feeling...

I truly thought, how is Катя going to live on? How can she? She can't, not without him. Well she does. I'm guessing one of the ways she does it is by not thinking about it too much. Keeping it repressed to an extent. A powerful technique. One that I had to utilize for this show. If I thought too much about Алёша dying, I'd probably start crying again because of how unjust it was. But Катя is just as much of an angel as Алёша was. She would constantly pray for those trying to kill her, hurt her, and forgive everybody despite all that she had to go through everyday. How is she so...good?

But she managed to keep him in her head enough, to be thankful for the love, for the memories, for she will see him in Heaven...and have that to look forward to. So what if things didn't work out on Earth? And yet, it's not like she forgot him, not even for a second. Again, the exact techniques I had to learn. For a second though, did this show make me depressed and angry? Absolutely. But who knew I would come out like this?

Another interesting thought, what even goes up in Heaven? Does life sort of "continue"? Is it possible to never find love on Earth but to find it after death? That's crazy...

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