Making it the best summer ever

I have decided that it must be the best summer ever.

You see, I thought that about last summer.

It wasn't.

For reasons, we already know.

(In reality though, it actually was very good, up until that point). After that, things were...I mean, I did recover and do other things but things weren't the same. Like up until then, I actually was having the BEST time and really living it up with friends.

Like going to the aquarium in Chicago, getting some cute pictures, going to botanical garden, getting açaí bowls, and driving to the beach (car rides and music in general).

Now this summer I've decided that it's going to be the best summer.

We need a redemption from last summer.

And here's the thing.

It's physically impossible for anything to go wrong.

I mean yes, obviously, things could be bad if like, I don't know, whatever could happen.

But it can't be like last summer. That horrible shit that happened, is unrepeatable.

It's all so past, the scars now so here.

It can't get worse than this. That will never happen again. It is physically impossible.

So you see what I mean? It has to be good. It's like this guarantee that it can. I'm taking advantage of that guarantee, and I want it to be good. To be better. Because last summer was mogged. And I want to make up for that! I owe it to myself.

Any plan that went wrong last year, I plan to make it up. Like going to the botanical garden again, retaking any pictures I did not like…I need to feel good. That is a huge goal: Get myself together.

There are fun plans ahead too. City trips, camping, I’m doing what I feel is best for me. Even if it means sacrificing on things that I love.

I know it may sound weird and controversial, but it’s really what I do feel is best when I think about it. Because I love camp, but in my heart I feel and know that I cannot go this year.

I know my priorities need to be different, but that absolutely doesn’t mean that this summer will be any worse. In fact, I plan to make it the best summer ever! In fact, it actually does open up a lot of time to do things this way! Even if I have to do things like study for the MCAT, and get a job (but in something that I love, if God-willing everything works out the way I want it to. PLEASEEEEE). That has more hope than the college of engineering did, I guess, sadly, ironically, because the company did tell me to reach out again in spring/summer. So like now I need to act.

I keep randomly forgetting that I’m going to Europe too.

Anyway, here’s to summer!