Recollect

Get up from the fight, rebound, is all I seem to ever do.

I've had a day to recollect my thoughts and reflect a little bit. I have to admit, I was a little upset yesterday, but today is a new day and I feel much better.

Things are not ideal, and are a little worse than I had hoped, but it's okay because I will get through this, and everything can still be okay.

Maybe, hopefully, things will even change and turn out not as "bad" as they seem right now. I mean though, in a way, things are not too far away, in a different way, there's still enough time to turn around!

The true test is time. We shall see what will happen.

There's excitement in that, even if I had to accept some tough realities first.

The good news that, there's not much that can feel worse after everything that's happened, you know? So in my opinion, things can only look up, because I've hit rock bottom a little too many times. It makes me think, without a doubt, that life can't be as hard again.

Am I saying I will never have struggles again? No, of course not, only a fool would say that. I know it's not that easy. But what I do think, however, and how I truly feel, is that in a steel type of way, I have been prepared to fight with the worst. So even when things occur, it won't feel as bad to me. Because not only have I dealt with a lot, but it has taught me lessons. I have experience. I probably won't even blink an eye at some of the things that come up, because it'll appear so normal or easy to me.

I mean even this upcoming semester, it won't be easy, at least one class I am concerned about (which is truly nothing to all my other semesters. The most recent: I was dealing with at least 3 classes I was apprehensive about). There were classes I just, no matter what I did, I would't've had enough time to do anyway. As in, dedicate all my time to. It was just impossible, in connection with all the other classes I had to do. Some of those classes, you can genuinely spend all time doing.

Really what I mean: ORGANIC CHEMISTRY.

Not even to mention the lab, because for that, you constantly had something, and like 5 different new things, to do. Always like 2 post labs and 2 pre labs you were juggling at all times. But that's whatever. In theory, they kept you busy but if you were on top of it, you couldn't actually "spend all your time" out of all of the time you had, doing that class. There were time limits too, in a way, because you had to wait for NMR, IR, and GCMS data. Or obviously do the lab itself, in order to answer post lab questions.

But for organic chemistry, man, you could study that shit all day every day and still understand nothing. All the reactions, nuances, mostly it's just the fact that they gave us a 30 page packet full of problems every week. In addition to that, packets for discussions, and whenever there was a quiz or exam that was hell, because 3 additional practice quizzes (or exams, whichever one it was).

The disappointing news I found out yesterday that I am talking about is that I might (high plausibility) need to add another semester or year to my timeline. If you know me at ALL, you know how disappointing this is. I have a very sensitive timeline, it is true. I may want to write separately about that, though.

Additionally, from yesterday: I have gotten a job but unfortunately not with the most consistent hours, so I was looking at something additional. I called a café, and they told me to call back after 4 today. In about an hour. I will certainly do that, hopefully I can get a little more hours.

Update: I am writing this post call, and I was told to come in. Hooray! Things are looking up.