Paths look different

Everyone's path just is different.

This is something I've learned. And the more I think about it, the more I'm like, "damn that's just really true."

It goes for so many different things, in so many different ways. I mean literally, that is just life. In every aspect.

In life, you just take what you are given. What you are handed. Does that mean you can't make more of a life for yourself? No, of course not. You can and you will. You must. Inevitably, it's just what will happen. From when you're a tiny thing walking around and making your parents who are new to parenting proud, you definitely have NO idea what life has in store for you and just how much things will change.

And just how much, those things that you want so bad, those dreams, may change too! Life is so unpredictable, you never know. And there's years of life that are just like "wow what the fuck happened" because from what happened from the beginning to the end- is a lot. Life has twists and turns, or is it just my life, lmao?

But what I mean about what you are "handed" is that you can't control a lot in life. Like who your parents are, what kind of financial situation you are born into, what you look like. All you can do in life...well, what life is all about, is about embracing!

Literally all you can do about things you can't change, things you hate, is find a way to like them. Find a way to live with them. Right? Isn't that just wise? Wise beyond my years lmao.

One thing about me, is that I feel like I have been the same way wise for years like the same way for years. But also, I definitely have grown in other ways too you know? Like sophomore year I started taking APs and I started having senioritis and from that point on I feel like I've been pretty much the same person. Sure I've had realizations, but I've had the same type of ideas. Even earlier on. Like I look at the fact that I wrote my novel at 12. I developed early on and just stayed that way?

Like a couple days ago, I was looking through this quotes book I must've started like in middle school and some of the shit was lowkey so fire and wise and I was like damn.

Anyway, it's about accepting the path life is leading you on.

Like for me, my life took some turns I really didn't like. But all I've had to do is accept them and it's the only way around it and the only way through.

The only way is to take things that are negative and turn them around and make them positive or find the positive in them.

Things can definitely be hard, and much less than ideal, but if you only view it as negative you won't be happy. I stand by that and think that it's very true, and feel like I can also say from experience.

You have to romanticize and fall in love with your life the way it is. And everyone's life is different. But if you are unhappy you can also change things. Whatever change is necessary towards happiness.

From my own life, what was less than ideal is not being able to study the program I wanted at the university that, from when signing on (everyone assumes this when signing on) I genuinely believed I would get a degree from. It turns out...no, actually. And already forming a life there.

Now I have to leave so far away but I'm trying to find the positive in it! Mountains, research on Yellowstone, besides for leaving the people, this must be amazing for me!

See, something different is amazing for everyone. That's the thing.

It just wasn't the place for me. That's just the thing. The only way you can view it, and the only thing you can say about it. It's just that simple (I know it's not, but it's the way you gotta look at things). And you can't think about what's best for other people, in your life. In your life, you gotta think about what's best for you. It's not what's best for other people. It's not always the same. And in fact, it can be really very different. And you can't get offended at the differences, either. It's not about comparison.